Thursday, November 14, 2013

From An Observer's Perspective

"I don't even know myself at all, I thought I would be happy by now"

yes. a piece from paramore's self-titled album, a song called last hope. hayley still amazes me with her lyric creation. i don't know where and how she got inspirations. BUT, it is not the same with the old paramore. hayley herself said this on paramore's unplugged session back in '09

"there's like so many times when, well josh and I would write, he'll be on the acoustic guitar and i'll try singing along, and like, i just can't come up with anything that i really love, even if i like the music. and then we'll start playing and practice with zack, and immediately i'll be able to come up with a melody or something that i feel is good, because i'm just really inspired by the rhythms and how tough and how heavy he plays his drums"

it's pretty obvious that zack and josh were the core members of paramore. because they created the music, while hayley creates the lyrics. it's a shame though the farros have to quit the band. i know it's been 3 years since, and i still respects the farros. wherever they are, you have been such an inspiration, not just for paramore, but for the world. believe me.

okay, so after the split, paramore released an EP with 4 songs in it. and yes, when you dig the lyrics, the split the experienced were written there.

"don't you ever wonder how we survived?
now that you're gone, the world is ours"
-Monster

well, from my point of view, those words were meant to the farros. josh, to be exact. and another song,which hayley herself said it's about "the pain of letting go and the peace of letting go".

"You escape like a runaway train
Off the tracks and down again
And my heart's beating like a steamboat tugging
All your burden, on my shoulder"

-In The Mourning

do you know why they split in the first place? well, long story short, josh felt that the band he created originally with taylor and zack, was taken over by hayley. at first he was ok, but then hayley with her manager takes over the band and decided which to do and don't. he felt that the other members were just supporting members and hayley was the one to take the spotlight. that's not a band, HE SAID. well i don't want to blame hayley or judge josh for being too sensitive. but in the end the farros decided to quit the band.

2 years after the singles club was released, hayley, taylor, and jeremy created new songs for paramore! exciting? that's what i thought too at the first time. but then before they released the self-titled album, they released a single called Now. to be honest the first time i listened to this, i was thinking like "holy crap is this the same paramore i've looked up to?" it is annoying. the way now ow ow ow ow ow ow ow was sung gets on my nerves. and then the music video came up. yet another dissapointment. hayley with baby bangs and no eyebrows. ew.
and then another single came. Still Into You. this is the kinda song that catchy the first time you listen, but you get sick after 5 times hearing it. why? it is pop and a lovey dovey lyrics. my guess is this song is how hayley feels about her bf, me. go on, look it up. google me. the 10 times i hear this i was bored. then, the album was released.
the first song played was Fast In My Car. and seriously, what the hell happened. is this the kinda music they create without the farros? some fans said "who needs the farros when you have the yorks?" they need it. seriously. ever since the farros quit taylor's brother, justin became the guitarist. not officially, just listed as supporting member. and the drummer for this record was Ilan Rubin, which was quite known as a badass drummer with a badass look.
after the sickening first track i skipped some few songs until one in particular caught my attention.

"What a shame, what a shame we all remain
Such fragile broken few
A beauty have the trade
Butterflies with punctured wings
Still there are darkened places deep in my heart
What once was blazing like now
There’s a tiny spark"

-Part II

supposedly to be the sequel for the kickass song from Riot!

"What a shame we all became such fragile, broken things
A memory remains just a tiny spark
I give it all my oxygen,
So let the flames begin"

-Let The Flames Begin

Let The Flames Begin? Hell yes. Part II? what the hell. i despise this song. maybe because i love LTFB and then i got the image of current paramore after hearing FIMC, then this. i skipped and found one song, Anklebiters. this was ok. still have the rock flavor in this.

after a few months of listening, i finally started to grasped their new music. i must admit, the magic hayley provides with her lyrics is still amazes me. but the music... it's not the same without the farros.
So, in the end i guess i am still a fan of paramore. both the old and new music. and Hayley, this heart beats for only you. my heart is yours.




"It's just a spark, but it's enough to keep me going"
-Last Hope

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Q : "What lessons have you learned in life so far?"
A : "You can't count on anyone. And expect nothing, otherwise you'll end up dissapointed"

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Loneliness is my only friend, and it's killing me slowly.

sorry, i just had to write something
i guess it's been a year since the "Jack Barakat" incident. 
oh how i miss that moment

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

My New Man

Sunday, February 19, 2012

The Hole

when i tried to sleep,
my mind wanders back to when i was with you
only the two of us
i was not the attractive kind of guy
but you spare your time to be with me

i remember every second i spent with you
how can i forget you,
when you gave so much to remember?
every word, every second
i was at a devastating state when i found out
i realized that i fell for you
you were the thing i promised not to fell for
but my own vow beats me
and i fell for you

when i tried to swipe aside my feeling
i took a trip to refresh my mind
but it was no good
because no matter how much you run,
you can never run from yourself.
even when i gave my full attention to another girl
every time i hit the pillows
you came to my mind
how can i fall asleep when i'm still falling for you?

and now i lie awake
thinking about you
i can't sleep with this hole in my heart
anyone can fill it up, but
i want you to be the one to fill it

i love you, and i miss you, sarah