Loneliness is my only friend, and it's killing me slowly.

sorry, i just had to write something
i guess it's been a year since the "Jack Barakat" incident. 
oh how i miss that moment

My New Man

The Hole

when i tried to sleep,
my mind wanders back to when i was with you
only the two of us
i was not the attractive kind of guy
but you spare your time to be with me

i remember every second i spent with you
how can i forget you,
when you gave so much to remember?
every word, every second
i was at a devastating state when i found out
i realized that i fell for you
you were the thing i promised not to fell for
but my own vow beats me
and i fell for you

when i tried to swipe aside my feeling
i took a trip to refresh my mind
but it was no good
because no matter how much you run,
you can never run from yourself.
even when i gave my full attention to another girl
every time i hit the pillows
you came to my mind
how can i fall asleep when i'm still falling for you?

and now i lie awake
thinking about you
i can't sleep with this hole in my heart
anyone can fill it up, but
i want you to be the one to fill it

i love you, and i miss you, sarah